i had made it my new years resolution to start a journal again, but for some reason i never had any motivation to do so. maybe it's because of the lack of a pc or laptop, because who really uses pens nowadays for anything that requires more than 5 words and i intend on writing more than 5 words. heck, i'm almost tempted to count how many words i already written but nobody has time for that. unless they do.

so where to start...

i got a gaming pc! hence, why this journal now exists and is being typed into. the pc is very nice and i'm very excited to game on it some more. since i quit collecting anime merch i got a lot of money back from selling what i no longer wanted, and i'm glad i can move on from that chapter of my life. expensive hobbies are no fun to fund after a while.

i've been dating. a boy who i love very much. he's 4 years younger than me and when i remember i feel weird about it, but then i remember when my asian genes kick in after a few years i probably won't feel too weird about it then. he makes me happy but sometimes i feel like i can't rely on him for support. however that's probably because he's still in school and getting his life together. he is younger than me after all. even so, his life is so much put together than mine and his future goals are so clear that i find it very admirable. so maybe i have to wait a few years before he can be there for me, stability and emotionally speaking. right now i can take care of myself, as i do.

i got into a car accident 6 days ago. the car next to me came too close into my lane and i moved out of the way too quickly, lost control, spun, hit the back of my car onto the center divide, then hit the front of my car onto the center divide. lmao. car is being junked tomorrow. it was a 2001 car, very old, but i took really good care of it so it could have lasted me much longer. may my car rip. everyone told me that they're just happy i'm alive, and enough people have said it that i can allow myself to believe it now.

i'm getting a promotion at work soon, which should help me save more money. my mom really wants me to switch positions because of how much driving my job entails, but right now i don't really know where to go.

honestly i'm running out of steam writing this so i'm going to stop it here and start something new tomorrow. i see my boyfriend tomorrow, so it's always a good day (unless there was a car accident hahaha).